William H. Willimon - "While Journeying, Suddenly a Light from Heaven" (April 29, 2001)
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- | This, the third Sunday after Easter | 0:09 |
we've got quite a good story, | 0:11 | |
even if you don't know a lot about the Bible, | 0:15 | |
there's a good chance that you do know this story. | 0:18 | |
About Saul. | 0:22 | |
Saul, Church enemy number one; | 0:25 | |
Saul, the murderer on his way to Damascus | 0:28 | |
to persecute Christians. | 0:31 | |
Saul, struck down on the Damascus road, | 0:34 | |
blinded by light, his life addressed, | 0:38 | |
his name changed. | 0:43 | |
It was such a dramatic experience, | 0:48 | |
he had to get his named changed | 0:49 | |
from Saul to Paul. | 0:51 | |
Paul, the great missionary to the gentiles. | 0:54 | |
It is a story that is always told by the church, | 1:00 | |
at least here, | 1:05 | |
in the afterglow of Easter. | 1:07 | |
We're just three Sundays from Easter. | 1:11 | |
That day when the stone was rolled away | 1:14 | |
and dead Jesus was brought back to life | 1:17 | |
and light shone from the empty tomb, | 1:21 | |
and the risen Christ burst the bonds of death. | 1:26 | |
Well, so what? | 1:32 | |
So what if Jesus has been raised from the dead? | 1:35 | |
So what if Jesus has been brought from death to life? | 1:39 | |
What does that have to do with us? | 1:42 | |
In answer: the church tells this story | 1:48 | |
the story of a man named Saul | 1:53 | |
and how he got born again. | 1:56 | |
And we love stories like this one. | 2:00 | |
Over the front door of this chapel there is a statue | 2:03 | |
of John Wesley, the founder of Methodism, | 2:08 | |
welcomes you to the chapel, | 2:11 | |
and that is a story, almost as dear to Methodists | 2:12 | |
as the story of the conversion of Saul to Paul. | 2:16 | |
Wesley was a proper little Oxford Don | 2:20 | |
a priest in the church of England, | 2:25 | |
a devout Christian who had already devoted his life | 2:28 | |
to Bible study, to preaching. | 2:31 | |
But Wesley had no fire. | 2:34 | |
After a disastrous stent as a missionary | 2:38 | |
in Georgia, he went back to London, | 2:41 | |
and in his words, one evening he went unwillingly | 2:44 | |
to a meeting in Aldersgate Street | 2:48 | |
where someone was reading Luther's rather dull commentary | 2:51 | |
on the Epistle to the Romans | 2:56 | |
and during that reading, Wesley said his heart | 2:58 | |
was strangely warmed. | 3:02 | |
His soul struck fire and the Wesleyan revival began. | 3:06 | |
See it was for Wesley, a lot like Saul | 3:14 | |
on the Damascus road. | 3:17 | |
And I don't know, maybe I've reached that certain age | 3:22 | |
in life but, it's occurred to me | 3:26 | |
that maybe some of you enjoy hearing stories | 3:29 | |
like this more than I. | 3:32 | |
I confess that I am of that age | 3:35 | |
where I have come to take inordinate joy | 3:39 | |
in keeping things in their place. | 3:43 | |
I am at that point in life, | 3:47 | |
where I sort of like things to stay fixed. | 3:50 | |
Bloom where you are planted, I say. | 3:53 | |
Slippers under the bed, | 3:56 | |
toothbrush always in the same place everyday, | 3:57 | |
everything today, just in the same place | 4:01 | |
that it was in yesterday and the day before. | 4:04 | |
If something gets out of place in my morning | 4:09 | |
rituals of awakening; | 4:12 | |
say come down, no cornflakes in the box. | 4:13 | |
I'm out of sync for the rest of the day. | 4:17 | |
So maybe there is something about this story | 4:21 | |
of Paul's Damascus road experience | 4:24 | |
that is for me, here passed 50, less than appealing. | 4:28 | |
And I confess, I'm a member of a church | 4:36 | |
that's come to a certain age, | 4:40 | |
that appears to love everything fixed in place | 4:43 | |
just like it was yesterday and the day before. | 4:47 | |
As a speaker I go to gatherings | 4:52 | |
of mainline protestant churches | 4:56 | |
and I look out and I behold a sea of hair | 4:58 | |
the same color as mine. | 5:03 | |
It's sad, Wesley's once bubbling church | 5:06 | |
of revivals and great awakenings and new birth | 5:09 | |
has become geriatric. | 5:12 | |
The church of the over 50 crowd. | 5:17 | |
Like cement. | 5:21 | |
Of course people on top, people who are well-fixed, | 5:24 | |
people who've got it made, content, self-satisfied, | 5:26 | |
people for whom the world as it is has been fairly good | 5:30 | |
well we don't want much change | 5:35 | |
and we don't get much. | 5:38 | |
We prefer to set out on a journey | 5:41 | |
moving confidently and assuredly | 5:44 | |
from point A to point B | 5:45 | |
with no detours, interruptions, diversions. | 5:46 | |
We are awfully well-accommodated. | 5:52 | |
We are well-situated, we're just doing fine, thank you. | 5:57 | |
Content with present arrangements. | 6:02 | |
"O Lord," we pray on Sundays, "Preserve us from having | 6:06 | |
"to make big moves." | 6:10 | |
You can't teach an old dog new tricks. | 6:14 | |
Sometimes even a young one is hard to budge. | 6:17 | |
And yet, deep in our well-situated little hearts, | 6:23 | |
there has been deposited this story; | 6:29 | |
this story of Saul who was knocked down, | 6:31 | |
heard a voice, blinded by a light, | 6:35 | |
and whose name was changed to Paul. | 6:39 | |
Here is a story which | 6:43 | |
rebukes all of our characterizations | 6:46 | |
of the Christian life as basically a neat, | 6:48 | |
predictable, orderly, progression series | 6:51 | |
of pleasantly continuous steps along the way | 6:55 | |
from point A to Point B. | 6:58 | |
With no jerks and jolts and lurches to the right | 7:00 | |
or the left along the way. | 7:04 | |
Sometimes, | 7:08 | |
sometimes by the grace of a living | 7:10 | |
and powerful God. | 7:14 | |
Sometimes we're on these journeys | 7:16 | |
and we get blinded by light. | 7:19 | |
Sometimes God surprises. | 7:24 | |
Sometimes it's as if God just reaches in and grabs us | 7:27 | |
by the neck and jerks, jolts, blinds us. | 7:31 | |
And we do change. | 7:36 | |
Historian Gary Wills says: | 7:40 | |
"If you are white, if you are male, if you are a southerner, | 7:44 | |
over 50," guilty on all accounts. | 7:47 | |
"there is no way to convince you that people can't change. | 7:52 | |
"because you have experienced," Wills says, | 7:57 | |
"radical transformation of heart and mind | 8:01 | |
"on matters of race | 8:04 | |
"in your own family, deep within the recesses | 8:07 | |
"of your own soul, that you are completely convinced | 8:10 | |
"of the possibility of radical human alteration." | 8:15 | |
When Paul looked back later and wrote about what | 8:21 | |
happened to him on the Damascus road that day, | 8:26 | |
he seems not to know whether to call it birth | 8:28 | |
or death. | 8:33 | |
'Cause in a way it felt like both at the same time, | 8:35 | |
it was like an old him was dying | 8:38 | |
and a new self was being born. | 8:42 | |
Writer Anne Braden grew up in the south in the 1930s. | 8:47 | |
The old south. | 8:51 | |
And yet as a college student, Braden had dinner one night | 8:55 | |
with an African American women. | 8:59 | |
And there at table, sharing a meal together, | 9:03 | |
Anne Braden said that though she was an Episcopalian | 9:08 | |
she got born again. | 9:14 | |
There at the table, a very Episcopalian | 9:17 | |
kind of thing to do. | 9:19 | |
In words worthy of Paul, Anne Braden later wrote: | 9:21 | |
"It was a tremendous revelation. | 9:26 | |
"It was the turning point in my life. | 9:28 | |
"All the cramping, confining walls of a lifetime | 9:30 | |
"seemed to come tumbling down in that moment. | 9:34 | |
"Heavy shackles seemed to fall from my feet. | 9:38 | |
"For the first time in my 19 years on this earth | 9:42 | |
"I felt I had room to stretch my arms and legs | 9:46 | |
"and lift my head towards the sky. | 9:52 | |
"Here for a moment I glimpsed a vision of the world | 9:55 | |
"as it should be. | 9:58 | |
"Where people are people and spirits have got room to grow. | 10:00 | |
"I never got over it." | 10:06 | |
And I can tell you that one of the great things | 10:11 | |
about being a pastor is that occasionally, | 10:13 | |
not everyday, but at least occasionally, | 10:16 | |
you have these people stagger in | 10:19 | |
and they tell a story | 10:21 | |
about how they've just been | 10:25 | |
plodding through life, minding their own business, | 10:27 | |
keeping their heads down, obeying the rules, | 10:30 | |
plowing the same furrow, day after day, | 10:33 | |
not expecting, not even wanting conversion. | 10:36 | |
And somehow God reaches in, grabs them by the neck, | 10:41 | |
shakes them up and down, and they despite themselves, | 10:46 | |
are different. | 10:51 | |
And their stories are a great challenge | 10:55 | |
to the conventional, socially approved atheism | 10:58 | |
of the modern university. | 11:02 | |
And I sit there, and though I try, | 11:05 | |
I can find no sociological, economic, | 11:08 | |
psychological, gender-determined explanation | 11:10 | |
for why they are where now they are. | 11:14 | |
I asked them the typical, conventional questions: | 11:19 | |
now let's see; you say you've made this big change. | 11:25 | |
Now, as a young child, did your mother ever beat you? | 11:28 | |
No? | 11:33 | |
Well okay, have you recently been dumped by your girlfriend? | 11:34 | |
No? | 11:39 | |
Well, is there some unresolved grief in your life? | 11:40 | |
No? | 11:45 | |
Well, have you recently had a dinner of Mexican food? | 11:45 | |
What? | 11:50 | |
And at the end of the conversation, | 11:54 | |
I'm just stuck with saying, "Well, I guess | 11:55 | |
"there really is a living God." You know? | 12:00 | |
I guess Jesus Christ maybe really has been raised | 12:04 | |
from the dead. | 12:06 | |
Because how else to explain such a lurch in your life? | 12:09 | |
Any God who would raise somebody from the dead, | 12:16 | |
and after three days in the tomb, | 12:20 | |
is just the sort of God would think it was cute | 12:23 | |
to jerk somebody around at 50. | 12:26 | |
And So C.S. Lewis spoke of his conversion as: | 12:31 | |
that time before God closed in on me. | 12:36 | |
And later he wrote a book about his conversion | 12:41 | |
and he entitled it: "Surprised by Joy". | 12:44 | |
Just this morning, I get up at seven o'clock, | 12:51 | |
old people can't sleep late | 12:55 | |
and I go down to the email | 12:56 | |
and I get this email from a student | 13:00 | |
an email written at 2:30 in the morning saying: | 13:01 | |
"I'm getting ready to get out of here for the summer | 13:05 | |
"and I've got to talk with you this week | 13:07 | |
"without fail, I've made some amazing moves | 13:08 | |
"in my life, some huge changes, stuff has happened, | 13:11 | |
"I've got to start processing this." | 13:15 | |
And I say to myself, that's amazing. | 13:20 | |
I can't even get in the dorms | 13:25 | |
without a magnetic, properly coded card. | 13:27 | |
And yet, Jesus has gotten in there | 13:32 | |
and jerked somebody around, gotten another one. | 13:34 | |
I will make time to talk to you this week. | 13:36 | |
Oh most of the time I want to portray | 13:43 | |
the Christian life as this orderly progression, | 13:45 | |
you've got to practice these spiritual disciplines, | 13:48 | |
faith development, you need to get up and do this, | 13:51 | |
read this from seven to eight, | 13:54 | |
and you've gotta be here on Sundays from 11-12 | 13:56 | |
and plod your way through the bulletin | 13:59 | |
and now everything is just by slow progression | 14:02 | |
and gradually it'll come to you, you'll get it. | 14:05 | |
But sometimes, but the sheer surprising grace | 14:07 | |
of a living God, sometimes | 14:11 | |
somebody gets grabbed. | 14:15 | |
God jumped somebody unawares | 14:18 | |
while they're on their way to somewhere else. | 14:20 | |
God closes in, God claims, God converts, calls. | 14:22 | |
Just like Saul | 14:26 | |
on the Damascus road. | 14:28 | |
And we realized that what we thought | 14:31 | |
was just a matter of bourgeois respectability | 14:33 | |
has become high adventure. | 14:35 | |
From this pulpit, some of you were probably here, | 14:39 | |
back in January, from this pulpit, | 14:42 | |
preacher Barbara Brown Taylor told of a time | 14:45 | |
when she had to sit on a seminary admissions committee. | 14:49 | |
And they turned this student down, | 14:53 | |
a student who was obviously unqualified | 14:56 | |
for the academic rigors of theological study. | 14:58 | |
But then this student, this person wrote them again | 15:03 | |
pleading with them to accept him | 15:07 | |
because he said, "I am in the Georgia State Prison, | 15:09 | |
"and my parole board has said, if you will let me in, | 15:12 | |
"they will let me out." | 15:16 | |
(congregation laughing) | 15:17 | |
Well, they invited him to come plead his case before them. | 15:21 | |
And this big guy, she said, came in | 15:27 | |
all the seminary people around | 15:30 | |
this big old table, | 15:32 | |
he comes in, and he tells them he said, | 15:33 | |
"I was a confused teenager, I hit on hard times | 15:35 | |
"I got a gun, it wasn't loaded, | 15:39 | |
"but I went in this convenience store, | 15:41 | |
"and thought about not doing it last minute | 15:43 | |
"I pull that gun out. | 15:44 | |
"Unknown to me there was an off-duty policeman | 15:47 | |
"in the convenience store, shots rang out | 15:49 | |
"and my life was changed forever." | 15:55 | |
And she said with that, he lifts up his T-shirt | 15:58 | |
exposing his large stomach, and he said: | 16:00 | |
"That bullet went in right here, | 16:02 | |
"came out over here, and that was my burning bush. | 16:04 | |
"That was my Damascus road." | 16:07 | |
And Barbara said the bad thing | 16:12 | |
about being on the seminary admissions committee, | 16:13 | |
of course we didn't want to admit him | 16:15 | |
but we had read Acts nine; | 16:17 | |
how did we know God wouldn't do something like that? | 16:21 | |
If God could change this murderer named Saul, | 16:25 | |
God could also probably change some nervous kid | 16:30 | |
with an unloaded gun. | 16:34 | |
It was just the sort of thing that God, | 16:38 | |
a God who had raised Jesus from the dead | 16:41 | |
might do. | 16:45 | |
And later, in Lent, from this pulpit, Peter Gomes | 16:47 | |
reading the story of Jesus. | 16:51 | |
Jesus just before his death | 16:53 | |
he goes to the house of Mary and Martha for a dinner party. | 16:55 | |
And he said Mary was there, and Martha was there | 16:58 | |
and Jesus was there, and old Lazarus | 17:01 | |
whom Jesus had just raised from the dead, | 17:03 | |
he was also there | 17:05 | |
and well in that moment, listening to that scripture | 17:06 | |
I thought, "Wait a minute. What kind of world is this | 17:10 | |
"where you can go to a dinner party | 17:13 | |
"and they seat you and say 'by the way you may remember | 17:15 | |
"'Lazarus, he's been raised from the dead | 17:18 | |
"'just a short time ago, hello' have a conversation." | 17:21 | |
I tell you, you can mess up people with stories like that. | 17:28 | |
They walk out of here, they say, | 17:35 | |
"You know, something may be afoot." | 17:37 | |
And it's a great joy because even folk | 17:43 | |
who are passed 50, | 17:46 | |
there's still some part of us that thrills to the notion | 17:49 | |
that God | 17:54 | |
is strong enough to change us. | 17:56 | |
It's a joy. | 18:01 | |
Because if we don't know a story like Saul | 18:03 | |
on the Damascus road; | 18:07 | |
if we've never heard about somebody getting | 18:10 | |
radically detoured; or minding her own business on Elm St. | 18:11 | |
Well, how could Easter be true? | 18:18 | |
Some of you have lived in North Caroline long enough | 18:26 | |
to remember the case of Velma Barfield. | 18:28 | |
Velma Barfield, she poisoned her husband, | 18:33 | |
I think he was a pastor | 18:36 | |
and they found out that she'd possibly poisoned | 18:39 | |
her previous husband. | 18:42 | |
She was of course, convicted to die in our electric chair. | 18:45 | |
And while she was on deathrow, Velma Barfield | 18:51 | |
began a correspondence with Ruth Graham. | 18:54 | |
Ruth Graham, wife of Dr. Billy Graham. | 18:57 | |
And Ruth Graham wrote some moving letters | 19:03 | |
to the governor and to anybody else who would listen | 19:07 | |
pleading with them for the life of Velma Barfield | 19:10 | |
because she said Velma has gone through this | 19:13 | |
traumatic conversion, | 19:16 | |
Jesus has gotten in there and touched her life | 19:19 | |
she is a different person, she had repented | 19:22 | |
she has felt remorse for her sins, | 19:25 | |
her story has got to be told to others. | 19:27 | |
Don't execute her. | 19:30 | |
Well, we said, you know isn't it in the Bible | 19:35 | |
an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth? | 19:38 | |
We followed proper procedure, we've done everything, | 19:41 | |
we've followed the law and if you do this, | 19:44 | |
then you deserve that. | 19:46 | |
But I thought the saddest thing | 19:54 | |
when it came time for us to be conservative, | 19:57 | |
bible-believing, evangelical Christians, | 19:59 | |
when it came time for us truly to believe | 20:04 | |
in the possibility of the resurrection of the dead; | 20:08 | |
we couldn't do it. | 20:12 | |
We just didn't believe there was a possibility | 20:15 | |
in that much God loose. | 20:17 | |
And we executed Velma Barfield, | 20:23 | |
and we felt good about it. | 20:27 | |
Well, I thought it not a matter of believing | 20:30 | |
or not believing in capital punishment, | 20:36 | |
but a failure to believe | 20:37 | |
that Easter keeps on happening. | 20:41 | |
Well you've heard the story of Saul. | 20:45 | |
If I had to take all this | 20:46 | |
and sum it up in just one sentence. | 20:49 | |
It is this: the same powerful God who raised Jesus | 20:54 | |
from the dead, | 21:00 | |
just won't stop. | 21:03 |